Why We're Here

This is pretty simple: I'm here because I am a disgusting fatbody. You're here because you're interested/appalled/fascinated/disgusted by me and what I'm trying to accomplish. The journey we're both on is seeing if I can stop being a disgusting fatbody.

I'll be frank you with: I don't have much hope. I've tried countless diets, numerous exercise regimes, etc, etc. All of them have failed for one reason: me. I lacked the willpower to get serious about my weight. I always had an excuse as to why I could eat that candy/cheese puff/pork chop/entire cow. And once I screwed up once, well, where was the incentive to keep trying?

Everyone has told me not to make radical changes, to take it easy, to go slow. But I've tried going slow. It just doesn't work for me. I need radical. I need a shock to my system. I need to stop being so goddamned fat and lazy.

The trouble for me is that I don't eat because I'm hungry. I eat because I'm bored, because I like (love!) the taste of food, and because I look cooking food. I love everything about food; how it tastes, how it smells, the sound of it frying (in butter, of course), the sensation of biting into a nice juicy burger that's been stuffed with cheese and how it melts into your mouth... Yeah. To top my food porn addiction off, I am lazy. HUGELY lazy. A lot of my friends don't believe that, because I'm often working on my house, running around on chores, and taking care of my disabled wife. But the truth is, you'd be hard pressed to find a lazier SOB than me. I only do a lot of things because I HAVE to, not because I'm any sort of motivated. Trust me - the number of projects around the house that I've started and have yet to finish are truly staggering!

Anyway, some things have happened recently to really change my thinking. No, not getting fat & unhealthy - that's been going on for a while, and has never motivated me enough. The big changes came from education and learning more about food in general.

For starters, my friend Jorge Vega began "juicing." Although this sounds like a wacky steroid regime, it's actually living on fresh-juiced fruits and vegetables for a period of time. Inspired by the movie Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead, Jorge and his wife decided to try "rebooting" their system through a juice fast. I was fascinated, because I had never heard of such a thing. I wanted to say it sounded like some crazy fad diet, but I know Jorge's not prone to that sort of rubbish. So when he started posting about the juicing and what he was going through, it really sparked an interest.

Then I started reading about nutrition. I read some articles at LiveStrong.com, WebMD, and even crazy sites like Men's Health. I went on to watch these documentaries:
Food Fight
Fresh
Forks Over Knives

Forks Over Knives particularly resonated with me. I'm a HUGE meat eater; and even discounting that incredible deliciousness, I'm an even more avid milk drinker. I grew up on it, I would start my day with a glass of milk, I knew it was healthy, and I had no interest in goddamned hippies telling me otherwise. But now?


I just bought my very first container of Soy Milk. Hold me.

Starting out, I tipped the scales at 309, the heaviest I've ever been. I managed to get that back down around 301, and that's where I'm starting. Big, fat, 301. Thanks to a long time of eating foods that I really loved and avoiding things that I considered to be "not" food - vegetables, fruits, whole grains and those pesky legumes. But now I've become disgusted by "food" - the things I used to shovel in my fat face as fast as I could.

Now, I hate "food." Let's see how long that lasts.